Whee, after 4 years of trying to get a working portfolio online, I actually managed to do it! Here's the link:

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The site itself is still in beta mode, so if you find any bugs etc let me know please

Thank God, my mom feels much better now, she can even stay at home. I'm so happy. Thank you so much for your comments and support on my previous note

It is such a strange world... I've never even thought that I would be using Windows Media Player instead of foobar or songbird, but wmp 11 is really great. It looks nice, works nice and sounds nice! It made a big impression on me, and the whole Win Vista OS did too. I've updated from XP to Vista because XP didn't like my soundcard drivers and kept adding filthy noises to every song I played. So I decided to switch. And I must say, it was the right choice. I do not own the fastest high-end computer (I have 1.6 Ghz processor, 1GB of ram, and poor intel gma950 graphic card on my notebook), yet Aero interface works pretty fast. And it does look good, unlike default themes in XP. I believe the GUI is much more user friendly now, but still I find the search ultility the most interesting and useful thing. You can easly search for your applications, documents, music etc, right from the start menu and it works in realtime. And Microsoft added a photo-managing ultility at last. So I think Vista is worth recommendation.

Oh, I've almost forgotten - I've registered a jabbler account so I'm finaly available on MSN and ICQ (yay). Feel free to leave a message for 265448053 (ICQ) and san_sedai@hotmail.com (MSN).

Take care

I've never been so scared in my life. I'm so afraid that I may loose the person I love the most - my dear mother. She was taken to the hospital yesterday because of high dehydration. High, yes, she has been having problems with vomiting for two weeks. If I had reacted sooner maybe her condition wouldn't be so critical. Today she was moved to an Intensive Care Unit because the treatment and a intravenous drip didn't have any results. Now I feel so powerless and guilty, there's nothing that I can do apart from crying.

I don't really know what to do...

*poof* and another 3 years passed away. So fast, maybe too fast. I guess the next step is a university, but I'm not sure if I'm able to enroll there. At least my high school finals ended today. I've had 20/20 points on both oral polish and english tests, but I have no idea how much I'll have from written ones. If I pass the extended math test, I will be happy. Really.

What else? Not much to say. My personal life almost disappeared, I have loads of work and I drink alot.

By the way if you're looking for a decent, cross platform mp3 player with bright future check out Songbird. When I was using Linux I got addicted to Amarok and it's features which I missed in Windows. But Songbird is a very promising application. And it looks cool!

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Yay, today I got new Creative Zen Nano+ mp3 player . Maybe it's not an iPOD (why they must be so expensive? T_T) but still I'm very happy because of that purchase. Now I can have all my favourite Kanno, Kajiura and Zimmer osts always with me.

I'm reading King's The Shining right now and I must say it's as fearful book as they say. Now I know that books can be scarry too. The way King creates tension and mood makes me want to hide somewhere under my bed. Once I'm done with this I'm going to watch the film, people say it's great.

I also took another quizzy quiz, this time for personality disorders. My results:

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: [link]
URL for more info: [link]

Meh, at least I'm not antysocial, but being paranoid isn't a funny thing

Recently watched anime : Elfen Lied, Paranoia Agent, Wonderful Days and Fate Stay Night